One week into the diet (hum, lifestyle change) . . . .


First and foremost to a healthy happy life is cleaning up your diet, which is so very hard. It’s been a full week since I started and I can report I have lost 3.1 pounds. I am more than happy with that because it a healthy loss.  FYI~ I do not expect that every week.

I am a member of the “one pound a week” club.  For me, if I think “I just need to lose a pound this week,” it makes it more manageable. If you think you are going to lose more, then you are setting yourself up for disappointment and then may give up. I have to warn you, in the dieting business you do not get as rewarded for your hard work as you should. Seriously. You’d think 10 pounds a week would be the result of such hard work but it does not work like that.

But, take heart. Trust the process and it will not fail you. Take it day by day. Hour by hour, if you most. Just keep chugging along. And, remember, a loss is a loss, no matter how small.

We’ll get there! All those little 1 pounders or even half pounders will add up.

Today, I want to share with you some of the tips that helped me lose weight this week and what I have been eating.

1)      I try not to eat out because I just lose control.  I think of myself as a new carb vampire.  So, if I am out for the day, I pack some non-perishable snacks in a bag (picture above). If my companions want to stop somewhere, I recommend Taco Bell. Cheap and not too bad on the calories. You have to run the items through your calorie app or “My Fitness Pal,” which brings me to:  

2)      The App “My Fitness Pal.” Amazing. I love that if my food is in a package, I can just scan it. Most of my foods are in this library. This is how I know what I have been eating, how many calories, etc. The App can tell you anything.  It’s also nice when you stall, you can hand it to your doctor, trainer or professional and they can tell you what’s wrong. Usually, you can figure it out yourself.  Just reporting this to you made me want to change up some things. Also, some of these items, I am not proud of. Just know: I am not perfect but try really hard, which usually get the job done.

My foods this week:

  • Espresso
  • Organic Eggs
  • Fresh pork (I turn into sausage patties. Recipe below)
  • Half & Half
  • Organic Salted butter
  • Frozen Vegetables
  • History Smoked Sausage
  • Apples
  • Pork Grinds
  • Rib eye steak
  • Ground Beef
  • Greek Yogurt
  • Tomatoes
  • Ranch dressing
  • Salad mix
  • Steak sauce
  • Russell Stover’s Sugar Free Peanut Butter Cups
  • Atkins Caramel Chocolate Nut Roll
  • Chocolate Whole Milk
  • Baked Fish with Old Bay, butter and scallions (my dad caught the fish)
  • Beef Jerky
  • Atkins Chocolate Peanut Candies
  • Taco Bell Bean Burrito & Crunchy Beef Taco (no cheese for me and Fresco style)
  • Canadian Bacon
  • Summer Sausage
  • Ritz Crackers (5)
  • Almonds
  • Deviled Eggs
  • Pork Chops
  • Thai Chicken Curry (recipe below)
  • Turkey burger patty (recipe below)

 Guzzle Guzzle Guzzle WATER ~ you know the drill. GUZZLE!

 Buy organic when you can or the purest food you can find.

 MY CHEATS: 3 slices of Pizza Hut Thin Slice Meat Lovers pizza on Wednesday night. A cup of Sonic ice cream. Truck stop eggroll and corn dog. And lastly, a slice of homemade bread sometime this week. Please know that even within my cheats I accounted for them and stayed within my caloric intake for the day (for the most part).

 Exercise: None

 Goals for this upcoming week:

  •  Cut out the crackers & the dairy except for half & half (should be easy since they are almost gone. I was just finishing up some food in the house. I don’t waste).
  • Only eat out once a week
  • Less beef, more chicken and fish.  
  • Get some exercise in. I did sign up for my first 5k this year so I gots to get steppin.

Basic Recipe for my homemade sausage patties:

  • 1 package of fresh ground pork
    • I get mine from Walmart for $2.48. I haven’t manned up on the $8 package of pasteurized pork yet but I’ll get there
  • 1 tablespoon maple syrup
  • ½ teaspoon salt
  • ½ teaspoon pepper
  • 1 teaspoon sage
  • Sprinkle of crushed red pepper

 I mix it all together and form into patties and fry in whatever fat I have (bacon, lard, olive oil, coconut oil, ghee . . . )

 I use some of my Penskey Spices but it’s not necessary and you can experiment with the taste. Penskey’s is one of my favorite things:

 For this recipe, I used 1 teaspoon Parisian Bonnnes Herbes ( and 1 teaspoon bratwurst sausage seasoning (

 Penskey’s also has a breakfast sausage seasoning that would probably take all the work out of the breakfast sausage patty but I haven’t tried it yet (

 I keep these sausage patties in the frig for a few days and eat with an egg for breakfast. I also cut them up and add them to my thai curry (recipe below)

 Naturally, these patties beat the heck out of those frozen hockey pucks you would normally get and you know what’s inside this (except for that ground pork but we won’t go there today and just naively assume it’s pork and fat)

 I did promise a curry recipe but it’s not my own. Here you go . . . . I love love love this and make it about once a week. Nom Nom Paleo is my favorite blog. I just got her cookbook and am working my way through it. Although, I am familiar with most of the recipes from her blog.

 My fast version of Nom Nom Paleo’s curry:


  • 1 T coconut oil
  • 2 T yellow curry paste
  • 1 1/2 C coconut milk (pretty much one can)
  • 2 T coconut aminos
  • 1 T Red Boat fish sauce
  • 2 T apple juice
  • Kosher salt
  • Freshly ground black pepper

 In a large deep skillet, melt the coconut oil over medium heat and stir in the curry paste. Once the spices are fragrant, pour in the coconut milk and bring it to a simmer, stirring constantly. Next, add the coconut aminos, fish sauce, and apple juice and stir everything well to combine.

  • Add shrimp and/or chicken and/or left over cut up sausage patties from the recipe above
  • Add a bag of broccoli coleslaw
  • Add a handful of julienne carrots

 Cook covered until done. Too easy, huh?

 Another recipe I am in love with and have made multiple times is this chicken burger.  My mom even requested I make them today and she runs from anything healthy.

 Gwyneth’s Chicken Burgers, Thai Style

This comes from Gwyneth Paltrow’s book “It’s All Good” ~  I first got the book from the library and then bought it because the recipes were so good. Anyway, here is the link and recipe:,,20360857_20693756,00.html

• 1 1b. ground chicken (I used turkey meat too)
• 2 garlic cloves, very finely minced
• ½ cup cilantro, finely chopped
• 2 shallots, very finely minced (I only used one. Two seemed like a bit much)
• 1 tsp. very finely minced red chili (or more or less, however hot you like it)
• 2 tsp. fish sauce
• ½ tsp. coarse sea salt
• 2 tsp. freshly ground black pepper
• 2 tbsp. canola, grapeseed or safflower oil (I used olive oil)

1. Thoroughly mix the chicken with the garlic, cilantro, shallots, red chili, fish sauce, salt, and pepper. Form the mixture into 4 burgers, each about ¾-inch thick.

2. Heat a grill or grill pan over medium heat. Rub each burger on both sides with a bit of oil and grill for about 8 minutes on the first side and another 5 minutes on the second, or until nicely marked and firm to the touch.

Have a good weekend!! And remember, just getting through each day is a victory .  . .

Be Your Own Fashionista



One of the most stylish people I ever met was a not so tiny Cuban Mary Kay selling spitfire.  She told me that she was always told that “If you feel bad, look good. If you feel good, look even better!” This woman swore to me that she never left her house looking slouchy.  You never caught her running to the store real quick looking ratchet. I do not know if that is true but I never caught her and she had a big influence on me. I first approached her because I noticed how flawless her makeup was and she never took a day off from looking her best. It was she who drew me into the world of expensive cosmetics. 

Oh, I love it all!! But, I also know how to live on a beer budget. Now, I would rather have the money in my bank than a $30 lipstick. The secret: you can look just as good with E.L.F. (, Wet & Wild and our discount cosmetic aisle.  In fact, I think it’s not so much the product as the application.  It’s also a color/style thing. Not to mention a swagger thing.

I switched to the drugstore cosmetics after my own experiment. I was unemployed and then employed again. I remembered the lean time and just could not bring myself to spend the kind of money I was before. So, one night, I did one side of my face with my leftover expensive Lancôme, Chanel and Mary Kay collection and the other with new E.L.F., Cover Girl, and Revlon. I looked in the mirror and could not tell a difference.  Hand to God. Of course, the expensive stuff glides on more smoothly and feels great. But, I figured out that a $4 tube of Cover Girl could do the job.

Just to be sure I went into the living room, threw on the overhead light, interrupted the evening television program and asked my family, “Can you see something wrong with my face?” 

My brother asked if it was a trick question. I got right into his face, told him to take a close look at my face and tell me if there was a difference between the two sides.  He couldn’t tell! I told him what I was doing and he swore he could not tell.  So, now I am reformed. And, I have to tell you my brother is pickier than a female when it comes to looks. He would not let me walk out of the house jacked up.  

So, that’s the world of cosmetics.  You also have to have a skin regime, which I do. I’ve tried it all and have a bit of acne.  I swear now people are constantly complimenting me in public on my skin. (oh, and I do drink a lot of water. That helps mucho)

I swear by:

  • Washing my face with Cetaphil Skin Cleanser
  • Moisturizing in the morning with Aveeno Smart Essentials Daily Nourishing Moisturizer with Sunscreen
    • I once saw an Oprah episode where a very elderly woman had beautiful skin and her secret: She never left the house without moisturizing.  She moisturized first thing in the morning.
    • Recently, this particular bottle has been going on sale everywhere so I am in a wee bit of a panic that it is going away and then I will have to search for something else.
  • At night, I use Olay Total Effects 7 in one Moisturizer Plus
  • A couple of times a week, I use Burt’s Bees Acne Solutions Pore Refining Scrub

 For makeup foundation, I wear a BB cream (whichever is cheapest and the store has. For right now, that is Revlon Photoready BB Cream. Got some SPF in it. You can never have enough. Just in case) and I top with a brush of Cover Girl Tru Blend Minerals (I reckon any mineral powder would do as well). Both of these items are very popular and for good reason.  

I love all eye shadows and just pick whatever I fancy. Sometimes, I match my outfit but most of the time I don’t think about it that much.

Right now, I am in love with Revlon Super Luscious Sky Line Pink lipstick. That Revlon Super Luscious is awesome, it won’t dry your lips out and I just saw it voted in some magazine as one of the best cosmetic products of all time.

Once you get the hang of it, it really only takes five minutes to throw on a face. Another five to do something with your hair. I throw my hair in a bun. I have one of those bun donut holder from Sally Beauty Supply (much cheaper than Hot Buns) and I have mastered the bun and rock that most days. Of course, taking your time is a nice luxury. The picture above is my beauty station (all compliments of Ikea) and I love it. I sit there, listen to my music, drink my coffee and put on my war paint for the day.

As far as clothes, I pretty much have a uniform and it’s somewhat ballerina. I suggest having a uniform. It just makes life so much easier. I got this from Simon Cowell and my step dad. They wear literally the same thing every day.  Mind you, of course, they have 20 of each item. I am not that bad but I usually wear some combination of a bright comfortable top with a cardigan, black bottom and a flat.

These are the best leggings in the world. The Walmart Danskin Now Dri-More:  For every day and for working out in. I wear them long and I wear them cropped. Forget Lululemon! (although, I admit if I could afford it and fit into them, I would so I am just hating on them cuz I’m jealous)

Then, I top my look off with jewelry. I love costume jewelry. I just hit a Dollar Mania where every piece of jewelry was a dollar and bought $20 worth of stuff. Now, I have a ton of looks. I have some real stuff and just mix the two.  One of my favorite people is forever wearing a pair of pearl earrings. Super cute! Even with a t-shirt and running shorts.

Anyway, the point is that you should be looking your best when you leave the house.  If you are depressed and do not feel like it, all the more reason to do it. If you feel fat, force yourself to look the very best you can no matter your size. I’m not saying this to be superficial. And, it’s not about what other people think about you. I just know this really helps with your self-esteem, depression and motivation. You feel better about yourself when you look in the mirror and see you looking your best. It’s all “Fake it until you make it.”

I will leave you with the words of hoyty toyty Coco Chanel, whom I absolutely adore:

“I don’t understand how a woman can leave the house without fixing herself up a little – if only out of politeness. And then, you never know, maybe that’s the day she has a date with destiny. And it’s best to be as pretty as possible for destiny.”

Garden Your Place Pretty


We live in the South and this weekend was beautiful. The winter was so dreary and depressing that the first sunny day we got, we couldn’t help ourselves.  We ran out to get our gardening supplies.  We have been making plans all winter. We had some things but that didn’t stop us from first going to the Dollar Tree. There, we got a clear plastic drop cloth, gardening gloves, containers, wind chimes, garden decorations, lawn lights, and anything garden we could find.  Believe it, we found $1 boxes of topsy turvies for our tomato plants and snatched up two.

We hopped over to World Market for some beer and found more wind chimes and the cutest hanging planter hooks with birds on top. Trust me. Super cute.

Then, we hit Walmart. I unfolded the $1 Tree clear plastic drop cloth in my trunk like a mobster about to throw in a body.  Then, we grabbed one of those garden carts and loaded up on potting soil.  After that, we strolled through the plants. We got a ton of flowers and some seeds for our vegetable crate container garden.

Here is the link for the urban container garden. I seen this off Extra Virgin on the Cooking Channel and had to duplicate this summer season.

We also copied an idea we found from one nursery we went to a long time ago. They wanted over $100 for this.  Instead, this weekend we found a beautifully ornate bird cage for $5.  We found a container at the $1 Tree and an Ivy plant for $2.  We are putting the Ivy plant inside the bird cage with some fake feathered birds (tasteful ones, mind you).  I will let you know how this turns out. The idea is that the Ivy will grow all around the bird cage.

Not much to tell about the rest. We unloaded the car with all our goodies. Started drilling to hang our planter hooks. Started filling our crate containers, flower beds, hanging pots and regular pots with soil and plants.

I once had a judge tell me that gardening is the greatest stress reliever out there. There is nothing like putting your hands in soil and growing something.

For us, because we were so eager, we now have to protect our work from some lingering cold but mostly we have to love and water our beautiful harvest and watch it grow.  How can you not be happy with flowers and plants? I dare you. And, you can do it relatively cheap. Everybody has a front door at least, a porch is ideal, but just a window will do. You can start with a simple Ivy plant. They are so forgiving and grow like mad. The possibilities are endless.

Then, when you are done, sit back, drink a World Market beer and enjoy the view.  Or, you can do like me and use this wonderful day that you enjoyed with your mother to scrap book it with some pictures and Garden Stickers you found on clearance at Michael’s. 

Do you know Tory Johnson?

She is a Good Morning America’s TV personality that lost a whopping 62 pounds.

Back in January I read her book called The Shift: How I finally lost weight and discovered a happier life.

Incidentally, I always recommend getting books from the library first. I only buy a book if the library does not have an item, I do not come across it at a Goodwill, Used Book store or yard sale and I just have to have it in my personal collection. Space is limited so very few books end up in my collection. I only just walk around Barnes and Noble and dream about being to afford books prices like that. But, now I figure, I’ve gotten so cheap, I probably wouldn’t even if I could. Anyway, back to The Shift by Tory Johnson.

The best point of the book: If you have weight to lose, it will take time. Weight loss is a VERY SLOW process. This chick lost a little more than a pound a week. Roughly, five pounds a month. She stuck to keeping track of her bad carbs and lost 62 pounds but it took a year.

Another awesome idea from book: Paint your fingernails when having a bad craving. I would take that further and say give yourself the  best manicure EVER (I’ll tell you in another blog how to do a home manicure. I am currently rocking some snazzy Mardi Gras nails)

One of the bad things about the book she is acted like she was starving.  It seemed that she lived off salads and you can get into that rut if you lack imagination with your vegetables but hopefully, I can help you with that. At any rate,  you should be eating one big salad a day (I got that idea from Brendan Brazier over at Vega nutrition.  He said to just make that your first step. If cutting out the crap seems to be too hard, at least just have a big salad a day and go from there)

Losing weight can be fun. I am probably a little OCD so I love planning my meals. I love cooking. I read cookbooks and pick out the recipe. I enjoy going to the store or the farmers market to pick out my ingredients.

If I had the money, I would be organic, grassfed Paleo Crossfitting Yogi and I would not be hungry or feel deprived!

I digress. Other The Shift Guidelines:
Keep carbs under 25 a day
Cut portions in half or less
Lean Meats, eggs and limited cheese
Low Carb Veggies (lettuce, broccoli, cauliflower, mushrooms, asparagus, artichokes, celery & tomatoes)
Skip starchy veggies (carrots, corn and beans)
Avoid all fruit, juices and smoothies
No soda (even diet)
Nothing white (bread, rice, flour, sugar)
Cook at home (eating out is an exception)
Weigh daily
If slip, start over instantly

All things we have heard before but it is nice to keep hearing them.

Other advice:
It’s a marathon, not a sprint.

“Change happens in small increments.”

1) Plan
2) Daily Accountability
3) Patience

Amy Freeze said, “One of the great lessons of life is using your mind to alter your body and then having that physical transition alter your philosophy on your individual potential”

No more excuses. The perfect moment is, and will always be, right now.

Slow and steady wins this race!

I like: “rewarding myself, a recovering food addict, with food is akin to an alcoholic celebrating a month of sobriety with a beer of two. It doesn’t work.”

Ms. Tory Johnson also has a website: (I still need to go through it myself) and of course, all the usual social media sites.

She was also in the Good Housekeeping October 2013 (I didn’t read the whole article because I had read her book but I did read the main points)

  • What I put in my head is far more important than what I put in my mouth
  • Food is fuel; it does not have to be amazing, entertaining, or exciting.  Each meal does not have to be like a trip to the county fair or a fantasy segment of Top Chef
  • What the shift will do for your waistline is nothing compared to what it will do for your confidence and self-esteem
  • Stop putting a number on your weekly goal. Trust that this will take time

I would add to trust the process!

Finally, in this article in Good Housekeeping, she has some Life Savers:

  • A fresh coat of nail polish top coat. You can’t reach into a bag of chips if your top coat is still wet
  • Pickles!
  • Light calming smelly good candles
  • At home, have a really pretty cute pitcher of water in the frig with orange, lemon, cucumber or whatever strikes your fancy

In other news, don’t you just love what Jessica Simpson is doing? I’ve done Weight Watchers and it’s a great program. Another great place to start. I love when Jessica says in her latest commercial: “I love this body and what it’s capable of no matter what size. My body like my life is a work in progress.” Amen.


I’m fat. Again. Gotta get down to my fighting weight. Again. Here we go. Again.

ImageIt’s like Oprah said, “I can’t believe I am still talking about this!” And, if Oprah is still struggling with her weight, you know this is a mighty hill. I have done all the same things. I have yo-yo’ed and been on every diet there is. I have learned so much. If you start a conversation about nutrition with me, I can hold my own. But, it doesn’t prevent me from letting everything go to heck in a hand basket.

My first step?  Get my head in the game. Fix my emotions. This is absolutely an emotional thing. It’s not a “I just love some hamburgers!” thing. Because I can have that in my life but I really shouldn’t be shoveling it down in mass quantities because I am angry, lonely and depressed. God, have I really been doing that and it’s been fabulous. Eating like a fat kid. Not working. Not doing a thing. Just sitting here thinking about my next binge. I’m a food junkie. And, as a result I got bigger and bigger. I am now at a record heaviest.  Worst, my back hurts. I can barely bend to touch my toes and it’s a struggle to put shoes on.  It’s so unhealthy. It’s no way to live and it’s not how I want to live my life. I might as well just put myself to pasture and then head to the slaughter house.  I don’t want to do that either so I have to ask myself why and how I want to live.

I turned to some literature and am going through “The Purpose Driven Life: What On Earth Am I Here for?” By Rick Warren. I am at the “What Matters Most” chapter and the first sentence is “Life is all about love.”

That got me to thinking about the phrase: You have to love yourself first before you can love other people.

Again, you have to take care of yourself before you can take care of anybody or anything else.

Right now, I despise myself.  For a while, I avoided looking into the mirror. I couldn’t stand what I saw there.  I hate people too. I have lost all faith in humanity.  I have loved being in the country without a soul around. I have happily cut off almost all of my friends and family; one by one. 

However, I realize I am not going to get out of this in isolation. I will have to learn to live and love again. This blog is my first step.

I was not always like this. I was once a bubbly happy person. I had goals and went after them one by one. But, I was kicked around one too many times. I have been cheated on, lied to, lied on, fired, lost my apartment, lost my car. . . . I lost everything but my family.  I didn’t have a dime to my name and humbly at the age of 30, I had to live off my parents. I am living with them right now. No wonder the depression set in, huh?  And, my depression swallowed me whole. Worst, I wallowed in it like a warm blanket on a cold night.

Elizabeth Gilbert in “Eat, Pray, Love” described depression and loneliness best:

“Depression and Loneliness track me down after about ten days in Italy. I am walking through the Villa Borghese one evening after a happy day spent in school, and the sun is setting gold over St Peter’s Basilica. I am feeling contented in this romantic scene, even if I am all by myself, while everyone else in the park is either fondling a lover or playing with a laughing child. But I stop to lean against a balustrade and watch the sunset, and I get to thinking a little too much, and then my thinking turns to brooding, and that’s when they catch up with me.

They come upon me all silent and menacing like Pinkerton Detectives, and they flank me- Depression on my left, Loneliness on my right. They don’t need to show me their badges. I know these guys very well. We’ve been playing a cat-and-mouse game for years now. Though I admit that I am surprised to meet them in this elegant Italian garden at dusk. This is no place they belong.

I say to them, “How did you find me here? Who told you I had come to Rome?”
Depression, always the wise guy, says, “What- you’re not happy to see us?”
“Go away,” I tell him.
Loneliness, the more sensitive cop, says “I’m sorry ma’am. But I might have to tail you the whole time you’re travelling. It’s my assignment.”
“I’d really rather you didn’t,” I tell him, and he shrugs almost apologetically, but only moves closer.

Then they frisk me. They empty my pockets of any joy I had been carrying there. Depression even confiscates my identity; but he always does that. Then Loneliness starts interrogating me, which I dread because it always goes on for hours. He’s polite but relentless, and he always trips me up eventually. He asks if I have any reason to be happy that I know of. He asks why I am all by myself tonight, yet again. He asks (though we’ve been through this line of questioning hundreds of times already) why I can’t keep a relationship going, why I ruined my marriage, why I messed things up with David, why I messed things up with every man I’ve ever been with. He asks me where I was the night I turned thirty, and why things have gone so sour since then. He asks why I can’t get my act together, and why I’m not at home living in a nice house and raising nice children like any respectable woman my age should be. He asks why, exactly, I think I deserve a vacation in Rome when I’ve made such a rubble of my life. He asks me why I think that running away to Italy like college kid will make me happy. He asks where I think I’ll end up on my old age, if I keep living this way.

I walk back home, hoping to shake them, but they keep following me, these two goons. Depression has a firm hand on my shoulder and Loneliness harangues me with his interrogation. I don’t even bother eating dinner; I don’t want them watching me. I don’t want to let them up the stairs to my apartment, either, but I know Depression, and he’s got a billy club, so there’s no stopping him from coming in if he decides that he wants to.

“It’s not fair for you come here,” I tell Depression. “I paid you off already. I served my time back in New York.”
But he just gives me that dark smile, settles into my favorite chair, puts his feet on my table and lights a cigar, filling the place with his awful smoke. Loneliness watches and sighs, then climbs into my bed and pulls the covers over him, fully dressed, shoes and all. He’s going to make me sleep with him again tonight, I just know it.”

I love that part. Back to me.  Here, I am poking my head out into the sunlight.

I once asked a friend why he hated fat people. It’s no surprise. Most good looking fit people are disgusted by fat people unless they are a reformed chubbster themselves. Admittedly, you’ll find the occasionally hottie with a chubby but it’s usually a girl; us being the less superficial gender. Anyway, my friend had a good answer. He assured me he didn’t hate fat people. He just saw the fat on the outside as the spillage from the mess in the inside.  The bigger you are, the bigger your problems. You have to take care of yourself. There can’t be a happy life even if the person is smiling on the outside.  On the inside, there is crap.  You absolutely have to take care of that crap if you are to have a fighting chance. You have to love yourself enough to want to take care of yourself.  There is something wrong if you do not have that love.  Finding it is the key.

About a month ago, this girl here was a wailing big fat teary mess in a psychiatrist office begging for help. We are trying some things but the first was to get me on a mood stabilizer and get some sleep.  So, I’m on my own “Tom Cruise” disapproved cocktail but screw anybody that judges.  I also meet with a clinician.  Your friends and family really do not want to hear you whining and frankly, they are probably not professionals. I can’t imagine fixing my own broken arm so why would I be able to fix my own broken heart. Find a professional for this.  Oh, and by the way, I went to my local Behavioral Clinic since I have no money and my treatment has not cost me a dime.  They have been wonderful. They have probably saved my life.

Don’t listen to Tom Cruise. Listen to Jennifer Aniston. She was in Glamour September 2013. In short, she stated, “We’re living in a time where, whether it’s the Internet or tabloids, being sh-tty has become a sport. We’re just grown-up bullies.”

Well, we good guys are going to need a lot of help to deal with that. Being  f’ed over completely sucks. Anyway, she also said that in your thirties, you should “go to therapy. Clean up all of the sh-t. Clean up all of the toxins and the noise. Understand who you are. Educate yourself on the self.”

If you are serious about getting healthy, the first step is to seek medical treatment, not necessarily in this order:

1) a psychiatrist

2) medical doctor for a yearly physical

3) dentist

4) vision

Now, to the fun stuff.

This is what I have inside my bag of tricks to turn things around physically:

1)      A digital weight scale. I weight myself every day for accountability. I have a notebook in the bathroom. I love to see it going down but am not as attached to that as some people get. I like to know when it doesn’t move or if it goes up. That means I need to adjust my diet.

2)      An “Operation” Notebook

  1. First thing in there is this great article. It’s the foundation of my diet. It’s how I arrange my meals. It will also teach you what a fat, carb and protein is. You can google crossfit and zone and it’s the first link that comes up. You want that free download guide to the right.


  1. I made myself a book on snapfish looking my best, some worst, and what I want to look that
  2. 5k training program (I went to Hal Higdon~you can google “Hal Higdon 5k Novice” or here is the link:


                                                            ii.      Start researching and picking out a 5k. It’s a lot of fun. That’s 3.1 miles and you can walk it.

  1.  My favorite healthy recipes. Printed out and put in sheet protectors
  2. The printout of Whole 30. You can google “Whole 30”
  3. Various Shopping lists
  4. Magazine Print outs and articles I saved

3)      I have a digital food scale from my weight watchers days. Love it! And lots of measuring cups and spoons.

4)      iphone App “My Fitness Pal” for food tracking and how much you should be eating

5)      Giant water bottle

6)      Atkins for Life~  I’m not on Atkins. I think people get carried away with that and start eating sticks of butter wrapped in bacon. I am not on a specific diet. I take a little from here and there. I like the Atkins carb education so I just picked up this book to cement that and to get meal ideas. Off the bat, I love that his book says, “Your objective will be to eat as many “good”carbs as you can handle and to cut out virtually all “bad” carbs.  This means no conventional bread, baked goods, and pasta and nothing made with added sugar. Even nutritious carb foods, such as brown rice, lentils, and sweet potatoes will be off the menu until you are close to your goal weight, when most people can reintroduce a surprising variety to their diet.”


About the Whole 30 guide in my book ,it’s not necessary to buy their manual but I did just because I think they should earn some money off their sassy strict approach. Their idea is genius.

I would love for my diet to be 100% strick Whole 30. Oh, the Whole 30 language is from the diet based on the Whole30 challenge created by Melissa and Dallas Hartwig. I’ve never survived a whole 30 days of strict clean eating but it’s a goal.

The rules are:

Eat real food.

Eat meat, seafood, eggs, tons of vegetables, some fruit, and plenty of good fats from fruits, oils, nuts and seeds. Eat foods with very few ingredients, all pronounceable ingredients, or better yet, no ingredients listed at all because they’re totally natural and unprocessed.

No: Avoid for 30 days.

More importantly, here’s what NOT to eat during the duration of your Whole30 program. Omitting all of these foods and beverages will help you regain your healthy metabolism, reduce systemic inflammation, and help you discover how these foods are truly impacting your health, fitness and quality of life.

  • Do not consume added sugar of any kind, real or artificial. No maple syrup, honey, agave nectar, coconut sugar, Splenda, Equal, Nutrasweet, xylitol, stevia, etc. Read your labels, because companies sneak sugar into products in ways you might not recognize.
  • Do not consume alcohol in any form, not even for cooking. (And it should go without saying, but no tobacco products of any sort, either.)
  • Do not eat grains. This includes (but is not limited to) wheat, rye, barley, oats, corn, rice, millet, bulgur, sorghum, amaranth, buckwheat, sprouted grains and all of those gluten-free pseudo-grains like quinoa. This also includes all the ways we add wheat, corn and rice into our foods in the form of bran, germ, starch and so on. Again, read your labels.
  • Do not eat legumes. This includes beans of all kinds (black, red, pinto, navy, white, kidney, lima, fava, etc.), peas, chickpeas, lentils, and peanuts. No peanut butter, either. This also includes all forms of soy – soy sauce, miso, tofu, tempeh, edamame, and all the ways we sneak soy into foods (like lecithin).
  • Do not eat dairy. This includes cow, goat or sheep’s milk products such as cream, cheese (hard or soft), kefir, yogurt (even Greek), and sour cream… with the exception of clarified butter or ghee. (See below for details.)
  • Do not eat white potatoes. This is somewhat arbitrary, but if we are trying to change your habits (chips and fries) and improve the hormonal impact of your food choices, it’s best to leave white, red, purple, Yukon gold, and fingerling potatoes off your plate.
  • Do not consume carrageenan, MSG or sulfites. If these ingredients appear in any form on the label of your processed food or beverage, it’s out for the Whole30.
  • No Paleo-ifying baked goods, desserts, or junk foods. Trying to shove your old, unhealthy diet into a shiny new Whole30 mold will ruin your program faster than you can say “Paleo Pop-Tarts.” This means no desserts or junk food made with “approved” ingredients—no banana-egg pancakes, almond-flour muffins, flourless brownies, or coconut milk ice cream. Don’t try to replicate junk food during your 30 days! That misses the point of the Whole30 entirely.

This is my favorite part and why I think you should buy their book:

It’s For Your Own Good. Here comes the tough love.

This is for those of you who are considering taking on this life-changing month, but aren’t sure you can actually pull it off, cheat free, for a full 30 days. This is for the people who have tried this before, but who “slipped” or “fell off the wagon” or “just HAD to eat (fill in food here) because of this (fill in event here).” This is for you. It is not hard. Don’t you dare tell us this is hard. Beating cancer is hard. Birthing a baby is hard. Losing a parent is hard. Drinking your coffee black. Is. Not. Hard. You’ve done harder things than this, and you have no excuse not to complete the program as written. It’s only thirty days, and it’s for the most important health cause on earth – the only physical body you will ever have in this lifetime. Don’t even consider the possibility of a “slip.” Unless you physically tripped and your face landed in a box of doughnuts, there is no “slip.” You make a choice to eat something unhealthy. It is always a choice, so do not phrase it as if you had an accident. Commit to the program 100% for the full 30 days. Don’t give yourself an excuse to fail before you’ve even started. You never, ever, ever have to eat anything you don’t want to eat. You’re all big boys and girls. Toughen up. Learn to say no (or make your mom proud and say, “No, thank you”). Learn to stick up for yourself. Just because it’s your sister’s birthday, or your best friend’s wedding, or your company picnic does not mean you have to eat anything. It’s always a choice, and we would hope that you stopped succumbing to peer pressure in 7th grade. This does require a bit of effort. Grocery shopping, meal planning, dining out, explaining the program to friends and family, and dealing with stress will all prove challenging at some point during your program. We’ve given you all the tools, guidelines and resources you’ll need, but take responsibility for your own plan. Improved health, fitness, and quality of life doesn’t happen automatically just because you’re now taking a pass on bread. You can do this. You’ve come too far to back out now. You want to do this. You need to do this. And we believe that you can do this. So stop thinking about it, and start doing. Right now, this very minute, tell someone that you are starting the Whole30.

Obviously, doing Whole30 is hardcore but at least keep it simple & at least write down what you eat and try these simple changes:  

  • Nothing white (no bread; no sugar)
  • Eat your vegetables!
  • Keep to the outer perimeter of the grocery store  (meat, dairy, produce)
  • Stay away from those evil inner aisles (obviously, you can sneak in for canned veggies and tomatoes but that’s it! Be brave. Remember, once it is going down the conveyer belt, you have failed because you will eat that.  And, don’t fool yourself about eating just a little bit. Just admit that you are going to roll around with that tub of ice cream or lick the heck out of those cookies)


I’m so new to this blogging thing but I got a brain so here I go. . . .


That’s me. I look happy but I’m totally faking it.  Well, the blood orange black iced tea, breadsticks, salad, stuffed mushrooms, and Zuppa Toscana at Olive Garden did feel the void in my soul for an hour.

This blog will be a little bit of everything. Diet, health, cooking, crafts and more importantly, a guide on how to get your groove back.

I will be doing all these things and finding my way to Paris. It seems that every time I try to get to Paris, my soul city, something not so good happens to me.

Once had a plane ticket to Paris and I got fired from my job for the first time in my life.

Right now, I am the not so appealing average American. I am fat. I have back problems. I have no direction. I am lost. I need to get back to a happy self.

I am using this blog for accountability. Sadly, this is not the first time I found myself in this dark depressing place. Trust me, I am kicking myself that I am here yet again. Anyway, the first time I did the fat unhappy girl transformation, everybody was blown away and I was told I should have blogged my journey.  This time I will. And, as God is my witness, this will be the last time I have to crawl out of the gutter.