Depression is a bitch. It’s like a dementor sucking the very life out of you.
But, here lately, there has been a spark of life within me. I still feel like I have heavy chains that I drag around with me but I force myself to do it. I know what it is like to feel emotionally and physically weighed down but what has helped me is just fighting it even if my efforts seem puny. One tiny step in front of the other. At least do the bare minimum required to be human.
Turning to my ever faithful daily list has helped me the most.
- Get out of bed
- Walk Ginger
- Brush Teeth
- Weigh Self
- Get Coffee
- Take Fish Oil
- Make Bed
- Pick out clothes for the day
- Clean Kitchen
- Get dressed
- Face moisturizer and deodorant~ It’s so easy when you don’t have to work to just wallow in your pj’s and get a little bit stinky. But, I’m going to stop that. So, even if it’s just for me, I will get dressed and fix myself up.
- Read my daily Jesus books
- Do something productive. I make a list of what needs to be done that day. It can be very simple.Today, I ran to the store for toilet paper and deodorant. I have a birthday party to go to. I reached out to a recent acquaintance to see if they wanted to do something social.
Once you start doing the basics, it’s like a snowball. You’ll find yourself doing more and more. I haven’t achieved a normal life yet but I have hopes to be back among the regular population again as a sane and rational person.