A day in the life of an emotional eater: The struggle is real


They say admitting your problem is the first step so I have to admit I have an unhealthy love affair with food. Instead of food being my nurishment, over time it became my friend when im bored; my comfort when im stressed or sad, and my relief when im anxious or nervous. All moods were celebrated with bites of something decadant and savory.





Over time I’ve noticed what an unhealthy habbit I have created and it is a hard habit to break; hard as hell! I’ve tried to eat clean, practice portion size, and substitute the bad with good…….



…. but I fail miserably. Nothing stays consistent. The good thing is every time I fail I learn more about new alternatives and helpful hints. Some things stick and some dont. Sometimes I may find myself in a bind and revert backwards, but I know I am human and breaking bad…

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Coffee & Redbull To The Rescue

I don’t know what to say. I’m still failing. I haven’t conquered my depression. I haven’t conquered my weight. I have no goals for the present or future. My life is operating on very tiny baby steps.

My mom keeps telling me to take it one day at a time. And, I do. I have to.

One day, I am good. I go shopping. I might wander around the internet. I connect with old friends.

Another day, I have a hard time getting out of bed. I literally could sleep all day. Here lately, I’ve been living on coffee and Redbull just so I’m not a complete slug.

On these days, it’s enough to drag myself out of bed in the morning. To brush my teeth. If I make my bed and tidy up my room, I feel fortunate.


I just cleaned my bathroom the other day because it was starting to look pretty ghastly.

As bad as it sounds, I have to make a sign to put in my bathroom for my nightly routine that says:


• Take Medication
• Brush Teeth
• Floss
• Mouthwash
• Wash Face
• Night cream

I have to force myself to complete the tasks.

If I can get my daily maintenance plan done in the morning, it’s a good day:


• Get out of bed
• Let Ginger Out
• Brush Teeth
• Weigh Self
• Get Coffee
• Take Fish Oil and Multivitamin
• Make Bed
• Enjoy Coffee
• Jesus
• Blog
• Bath
• Contacts
• Moisturizer
• Hair
• Make-up
• Deodorant
• Dress/Perfume
• Jewelry
• Breakfast
• Chores

Today, might not be one of those overachieving days.

I recently read a couple of articles about depression.



They really helped. First, they acknowledged that a depressed person is feeling really really low.

Motivation is almost none.

They advise to take it easy on myself and to take it slow.

Depression is so horrible. I can’t decide if I prefer the psychotic manic state. At least then I have some energy.

Anyway, that’s me. The Turtle.

Who did win the race, I might add but it was pretty dicey in the beginning.